Frozen Time

It's just a note that I wrote in the middle of the night (midnight actually), where the temperature in my room is bone-chilling (actually bcoz I got a fever) and this just happen to come into my mind, the two characters of my new novel. Hope it won't offend anyone with it ;) 

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It was way late at night when one’s can hear nothing on the distant. Or even one can hear one’s own breathing due to lack of sound in the night. In the darkness, the person looks up to the ceiling quietly, not moving even an inch, afraid to disturb the peacefully sleeping person beside. Checking the sound breathing person, she removes the blanket from her naked body and get off from the bed. She doesn’t even think of putting anything on to cover up her body and slide straightly to the terrace where the cold wind blow fiercely on her, making her regret her decision to come out like that and getting herself back just to grab a silk robe from the couch. 

The lamp from the city still lightening the street and one or two cars can be seen driving down the lane in such speed that they cannot get during the day. She sat on the bench and stared out to the dark sky, trying to find one star out there. All she finds was a moving lamp of a plane, but no star. Not even one. She looked back to the bed, just to find the person laying there hasn’t even move a muscle. She smiled serenely. How she love the feeling of his hand touching her cheek, caressing her. His warm hand that can touch even the coldness of her heart, hot breath breathing down her face when they’re kissing each other passionately. Especially his voice when he said her name passionately. And the way he said that he loves her, sincerely. 

She put him as her dearest. And she knows that he also feels the same. But will the world think of that too? There are too many obstacles, too many things that need to be cleared in order for them to be together. And for sure, there will be a lot of people hurt for that. And she cannot let that happen. 
Love is supposed to bring you happiness. Love suppose to bring you joy. But what is this feeling of despair that she feels? Why she feel this way when she supposed to gloat of happiness? Is love also brings sadness along with happiness? Why even everyone keeps on getting a steady love life and why is that is so difficult for her to achieve? But she really believes that he is the “One” for her and that she wants it to be him that lay beside her every single night, no matter what people said. And she also believes that she can take every obstacle and pass through it with ease as long as he’s beside her. But can she sacrifice someone else in order to achieve what she wants? 

The cold wind blows, wrapping her in the icy feel like a snake, slowly gripping her quivering body. She involuntarily shivers. Her bone ache because of the coldness but her heart ache more because of the confusion. She wraps the robe closer to her body, trying to get some heat without actually have to move her body inside the room. She does not want to falter from her decision this time. Again. That is her decision. 

Time went on without her knowing and the firs ray of the sun hit her face with its warmth. After a long dark and cold night, the sun appears with its warmth and shine through the clouds brightly. She looks at the sky that turns red like blushing of the look of its lover and sighed. Standing up from her seat, she moves closer to the railing with her hand raised up as if trying to catch the ray. Intense as she is, she didn’t hear anything until someone put a coat over her cold body and wrap her in it with his embrace. 
She turns to face him, smiling at her without questioning anything. And that is exactly what she loves about the man in front of her. He never asks but patiently wait for her, understand her, and for most of all, supporting her. And for not, just for this moment only, she turn back again, facing the sun and set her head to his chest and let go of her worries. Just for now… Only now, she wants the time to stop like that. Freeze in that glorious moment with her, him, and nothing else but their love.