Believe
A word that is so easy to say. But do you know what believe
implies?
Yesterday, I was hanging out with a wonderful woman that
giving me something to think about. During our conversation, she suddenly asked
me, “What do you believe?” Seriously, I am a bit taken aback by her question.
Yes, up until now I think for myself as someone that I don’t
even know where I wanna be, who I am and such and such. I always go to wherever
destination it is. No matter if it is the wrong path. Most are wrong though
because that is not what I wanted. Because I always suppressing myself for other
people. A mask you may say, but my mask is just me hiding for not getting hurt
by hurting other.
Back to the question, at that time I silly-ly answered, “I
believe in God, in karma.” But that is not the question asked. Then some time later, she asked me again, the
same exact question of, “What do you believe?” Perhaps my mind was being fuzzy,
but I answered a “What” question with a “Who” respond. Once again I answered,
“I believe in myself.”
During our meeting, she asked me the same question for three
or four times, and I cannot give her the answer she’s looking for. I remember
that she said, “I believe in love. That love has four aspects in it that when I
see it, I would say that is love”. I tried to remember the four aspects that
she said, but unfortunately I think I can only remember two of it by now. They
are respect and trust. And I totally agree with it.
The way she said that love is what she believe made me
realize how wrong I am in answering her. And today when I was just rolling
around in my bed, I suddenly realize one thing. And I really do hope that his
is the answer she is looking from me.
What I believe is experience. Why? Because life itself is full of
experience. Happy moment, sad moment, disappointing
moment, and everything are an experience. And I learn from experience in the
past, of myself or other people, to be who I am today. And I also believe that
no matter how small our effort is, it is also an experience.
A person knows what love is because they have experienced
it, or because they knew it from others. If not then how they supposed to know
what love is? A person knows how to do things well and better than the other
people, is because experience too. The time they spend to become an expertise
is a learning process that giving him an experience that no one has. And I am
also learning how to do well in life because of what I experienced in the past.
I forgot who said this, “The past made the present, and now
will decide the future.” When I read that sentence, I remember that I said to
myself to never regret any kind of decision I am making right now in the
future. And that is when I started to learn to take things slowly and savoring
the taste of experience instead of mulling around uselessly.
So, what do you believe in then? Think about it carefully.
